I’ve had a completely different post written out for almost a week now. But I left my notebook at work and it’s been too long since I’ve written anything here so I’m just going to write this out. I hope it doesn’t sound like I’m whining…
One of the things that I’ve learned about myself lately is that I work well under a certain amount of stress at work. Nothing motivates me to get something done quickly and efficiently like a deadline. It’s a good kind of stress. I leave work feeling accomplished and satisfied – and I leave the stress there. Huge difference from my old job.
Revenue (previous job) made me anxious and stressed all the time. I would wake up in the morning with a sore mouth because I was grinding my teeth at night from stress. No matter how hard I tried, I was never measuring up. Even when I was the one setting the standard – I wasn’t able to meet it, because they always expected more (this sounds like an exaggeration – it’s not). When interviewing for my current job one of the questions the Managers asked me was, “What was a stressful situation at your job and how did you handle it?” I thought for a moment before replying, “Well, it’s always stressful at Revenue, regardless of the tax season. There’s always too much work and not enough people to do it. So we just have to laugh at ourselves and try to stay positive in order to cope!” Sadly, I considered that interview one of the worst I’d ever done. I thought I bombed it. And I cried the entire way home because I didn’t realize how stressed-out I was until they asked me that question. I wanted out after over 3 years at Revenue. But God knew what He was doing. He took care of me, and by some miracle I landed the job that I’m in now. I love the people I work for.
If I face any amount of stress now it’s because I’m being challenged and stretched in areas I’ve never been before. I’m learning things that are completely new – the hard way: trial and error. But it’s great. Because I’m good at it, despite the bumps in the road. For example; today was really hard. For the first time in over 16 months that I’ve worked there I went into overtime because of a work-related issue we were experiencing. I almost fell apart for a few minutes. We had a problem that I didn’t understand. I’d done everything I knew to do – correctly – and still things weren’t working right, causing some major malfunctions further down the line for other people. But between me and IT, we got it figured out and repaired (turns out my computer is one of only a few in the building with Windows 7, and it’s got some crazy kinks to iron out). All will be well. I left this afternoon with a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction.
I don’t really have a point to this, other than the fact that God is proving Himself faithful to me. This area of my life is changing. Stress is no longer just something to cope with – it’s something I’m learning to thrive under. And that’s only by the grace of God.
Writing this out helps a little too…
How do you handle stress?